yeah!it's been awhile since my last post.noo.it's been ages.
i missed you bloggy but seriously,i have no time to write.it's been hectic.
and here i am to blurt things out.
firstly first,what's up with the future anyway?what's up with parents.
i'm having a really REALLY difficult time to think about what i should be in the so-called-future(if i have any).comon parents,i know i'm ur daughter and u are responsible to take care of me till i get be-wedded.i do do want to please u guys but u've been pulling my arms on this matter for a long time.i reaaaaally dont want to persue my life living the life i dont want.being things i dont want.comonla,not all doctors are great. if u leave things to me,i think i'll be a better interior designer or fashion designer than being little ms.doc. n guess what?! i'm not you little ms.doc!boohoo~~
secondly second,why am i feeling so numb all these while.i have a horrible toothache which made me stay up all night long staring at the fan bearing the pain.i'm feeling a little bit lost of self control which means that i've been swearing a lot.i mean it,A LOT.i'll get angry at every simple single thing that my bf do eventhough most of it was my fault.(he gets on my nerves).
and the most terrifying thing that happened to me is that,i've been comparing my life with other friends.(what the heck?!)and my life seems to be sucker than ever.
thirdly third,i think i have a serious memory problem since ayen's birthday.(i fell and bumped my head on a rock and nearly fainted.it was months ago but the bump on my head is still there). i cant seem to remember things well as i used to do.i'll forget to bring my money every single day-which leads me hving a lot of debts.and being such a good daughter,i dont ask much from my parents.
moving on..i think i lost the ability to trust anyone to be my good friend.not that i'm not having any new friends,but u know what,i dont trust anyone of them.and i'm pitying myself.my social life is getting worser.i dont social much,i dont talk to people much these days and i think i had stopped talking bout any of my problems to anyone.poor me.
oh god,let things change.just give me some space and let me be my old self.i reaally want things to change.i really want to change.